It's sick. That having to confess. And people just won't get it, get what you're saying. It's almost aren't capable of speaking words that people could understand. It's like, being deaf and can't speak or talk. It's as if you're somewhere around nowhere. You understand what you are feeling but then people just don't get it. They won't. They are just so ignorant. They don't care. All they care about is just their feelings. "They" refers to anyone around you who's acting that way. You'll know how it feels like, one day. Or you just won't. 'Cause maybe you're one of "them".