choices

we are all asked to choose. choose between what's wrong and what's right. just please try to think carefully of what the choice might give you. sometimes, we choose wrong, but it's the right time for your joy. hm so what? you will be happy somehow, even with the bad choices you've made. it's your decision so why hate it? remember when life gives you lemon, you make lemonade. ;)

happy

i am happy. for all i could say, i'm just incredibly happy. yeah i'm quite busy with PMR. but i am happy. probably happier than i was before. and i am sure that i will stay this happy forever. forever until i found my true, solid happiness. maybe it's already here now, but who knows that it will travel around again; i'll wait for it to come back if it does. i am happy.

mixed up

there's always something..making me hate everything. something weird inside me. called feelings. mixed and unknown feelings. at some point they get mixed up and i ended up hating everything and everyone i could. even myself...

obsessed

I love you guys. Forever and always. Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson. Love.

cookies

sometimes in friendship, there are challenges such as pushing away, being pushed away and stuffs like that. but i'm so fragile-hearted that i feel like everyone's pushing me away. but i don't really mind. cs i know that one day they'll find me back. and somehow they'll need me in the end. im not too sure but let's just hope fr the best, that my friendship will stay lovely. i love my friends, bestfriends or whatever, they're my world. bestfriends are the one who stay through thick and thin. and still there..where you had left them..they're still fine. still ok cs they lost track of wht's important and nothing matters, really. and to some point, bestfriends will eventually go their own way. and at the end of the day, they'll meet up and be bestfriends again. cs they know they can't trust anyone else other than them fr after wht's important. and..i'll always be and need you guys... xo

Lies

I feel unwanted. You know i'm not stupid. I can tell if you're lying or if you're confused. Your eyes say it all. You can't deny. It'll make you look like a fool. For i know the truth, ok? You think i'm ignorant. But i am not. I notice everything.

Happy Halloween guys! Yeah i haven't been updating my blog. But it's ok. Macam lah my blog got viewers ~ none. So how's it going with everything..? And remember those three fav sisters in that pic above? THE SANDERSON SISTERS!!!! I love them and i miss them. x

Liar liar pants on fire

Yeah it took me a long time to realize that i'm better off being alone. Without you or anybody else. No distractions. You lied. And this isn't the first time i feel down. I don't need you anymore. I can work this out alone. I don't need any help. I won't cut myself, i'll just sit alone and do nothing. Just staring into empty spaces. Realizing how i've wasted my time on someone who's really good at lying. And such a sweet talker too, i reckon. You wouldn't be suprised either. You told me that you don't like her. Yeah right. There goes the proof. I proved you wrong. What i did was right afterall, leaving you and abandoning you. So good 'cause i don't need to befriend any big fat liars. Great then. 

Life

Ppl will always find ways to judge you. You can never please them with whatever you have. They're always jealous and that brings you down. But actually, it starts to make you stronger than you already are. So you're happy by every second of your life and nothing scares you. You're a better person in process so don't let someone else come and destroy that. You have your daily loves. Your endless source of joy. So what are you asking for more? You got everything you ever need. Be happy and screw those haters of yours.

Sick

It's sick. That having to confess. And people just won't get it, get what you're saying. It's almost like...you aren't capable of speaking words that people could understand. It's like, being deaf and can't speak or talk. It's as if you're somewhere around nowhere. You understand what you are feeling but then people just don't get it. They won't. They are just so ignorant. They don't care. All they care about is just their feelings. "They" refers to anyone around you who's acting that way. You'll know how it feels like, one day. Or you just won't. 'Cause maybe you're one of "them".